MY REVOCERY PROGRAM

MY RECOVERY PROGRAM
For Fran three years on

My recovery program
Twelve halting steps
Each one taking me
Into one day at a time

Each sunrise wakes me
Gives me one more day
To find out what will happen
And imagine what would have happened
Had you been here

I have not recovered missing you
Nor do I seem to be recovering
The suddenness of your death
Not allowing detoxification
From the love we held.

Like the addicts I saw
kicking in hospital wards
Tossing feverishly and begging
I stir and feel your pillow
Search for your smile resting there
Make my one pleading for just one more day
Before facing the one I have been given.